thoughts.

ok, i cant go china trip, and that seriously is the verdict.
yea..and ha, my brother is like suaning me all the way that i cant go. dad thinks i will probably die in china and i wont survive for 1 day, let alone 12 days. mum thinks i will be so overwhelmed by the poverty there that i cant take it mentally.

why cant i go?
1) firstly, there is training for the mission trip. every sunday afternoon after church, but well, think i cant make it cause i have to use the time to study, practice piano, go for piano lessons.and well, i know the seriousness of it that going for the trip would mean a lot of commitment and zest and all the other stuff but i just cant. there's too much to do. there's too much to study for.

2) ha, like half the trip, mode of transport is on bicycle, and i am not very stable on one..cant even ride it properly for 200m let alone a few miles.i know there's a safety vehicle, but still..

3)well, i dont even knowif sch have whatever stuff during then...

4) am i even mentally prepared to go? well, my family was discussing abt it ovr dinner yesterday.. yea, willi be able to survive there..? or am i just going to go there and fall sick because of a different environment..

ya. quite upset ovr it, it's like so wasted.. i want to go..mum thinks its better if i go in jc or smthg.. thinks i am too young..

church camp.
not sure if i am going either.

wow, everything is like unsure..

well, i will just keep praying and see what happens.

sunday sch yesterday was quite cool.. had an interesting thought.. thx timo for giving such a good lesson.

timo: ''if you are ever feeling spiritually low, thank GOD for it, because the sign of you struggling to keep a close relationship with GOD shows that the holy spirit is working in you.''

yupps, experience low points of spiritual life before.. and i can say that those times are really difficult...but now i know what to do and even to be thankful for it..

yea..was listening to that droning wang jsut now,

mr wang jian: '' shi jie de dong xi shi hen mei de, zi shi wo men mei you yong yan jing qu kan''
(translation: everything in the world is beautiful, it's just that we dont open our eyes to look)

interesting thought.. maybe it teaches us to appreciate things around us and not to take things for granted...

yupps, it kind of remind me of one incident.. maybe it's a little out of point but it has some relation to opening our eyes..

ya, that time there was this virus that someone sent to bayouths email.. then i open it.. then timo sent some email later and said that it was a virus and sent some instructions on how to save the com..then i just kept it in the inbox but nvr really go read it.. a few weeks past with me complaining and whining on the virus in my com and i kind of forgotten abt the email that timo sent.. yea.. then when one day i finally realise that it's in my inbox i was quite shock.. ya, during then i was complaining to GOD abt it/.. not realising that he has already answered my prayers.. yea, that was a lesson learnt.

so, thats all for my thoughts..