pathetique

pathetic.

yes, this was what i felt yesterday. just so pathetic.
ya, felt so horrid that i am just so slow and cant get stuff right as fast as others. just felt so lousy and ya, stupid.

and the worse thing was no one reached out...

''everyone has the same brain, it's just whether you work hard or not''

yea, was thinking abt this quote yesterday. well, maybe it's just tt i dont work hard enough.

was rushing my lit assignment and chinese zuo wen all on friday.

ya, it was my fault tt i didnt have enough discipline to do it on thursday night. yea, i fell asleep.

what kind of excuse is that anyway?

and you know when i am stressed out doing things last minute, i panic, i feel frustrated, i cry?

which didnt help to rectify the situation either.

maybe i felt better after sobbing in silence in the cubicle?

praying that GOD will comfort, praying that i will stay calm..

perhaps i felt better after people start trying to cheer you up?

after realising your puffy red eyes, after hearing you sniff a little in your seat?

perhaps i felt better when i received a msg of encouragement from a friend?

maybe it's when someone in your position keeps you company through the afternoon, occasionally making you feel you are not alone in this, occassionally making you laugh?

i dont know.

all i know its that, it all felt better cause GOD was around.

it all felt better cause at the end of the day you learn new lessons.

it all felt better cause you completed your work.

it all felt better.

taking a cold drink, breathing deep breaths, closing your eyes, saying a prayer of thanks.

and then you open your eyes to face the world again.

hoping this time you will face it bravely, knowing that there's an omniscient being always beside you.