the end, almost..

so, yesterday was the end.
almost the end actually..i can't wait for it to be over yet at the same time sad tt it is all too soon.
well, it ended of in a tremendous shock when the emcees went on to announce for the grand finale. simply not a climatic end of my performing days in stnicks, but rather a cliffhanger.

people who screamed their lungs out for an encore, thanks so much for your sheer boldness but i'm sorry to disappoint you all. but still really thank you for the flowers :)
-blankness-
anyway,my dearest choir, i am very proud of every single one of you pple and i love every single one of you. seriously, we don't need to sing that song to show how good we are. we are good. and we know it. but, this is not the cue for us to grow complacent alright? i know that you pple can do it without the sec4s on the 1st july. we are a triple GOLD choir. rmb that, rmb that we've got the potential to do so many great things yes? so i ask that you all forget about the embarrassment, humiliation or anything that happened. we acted very well on stage and pulled it off...it was difficult leading you all this year, a trying attempt, i must say. sometimes i feel like i'm saying the wrong things, doing the wrong things.. but i thk you pple inspire me. that's all i can say pretty much. so, mei nu men, please don't cry if you were sobbing your hearts out last night ohhhhhkay?

and to you, i know you wont be reading this, but i just want to say that we treasure you as much as we treasure her, ok maybe honestly, we don't, but it's only because we love her too much because of the many things she did for us, how long a way she came with us and how much closer she is to us. but we appreciate how you've been trying to open up, and guide us but we don't need you to follow her or be her substitute and neither are we treating you as her substitute. i feel that maybe i shld have kept you more informed about us but i really ask tt you'll forgive st nicks for not accepting you enough. i know that you feel as though you have to follow her and tt we want you to follow the way she does it and i know you are trying to do your best to follow, but i just want to say tt you need not have to. so yesterday, was seriously smthg tt made you upset but i ask tt you will forgive.

well, sch has been rather tiring lately. no idea why, perhaps haven't got into the momentum of waking at 5.45am each day. anyway, the same old classroom topics are sseriously outdated and we shldnt be talking abt it anymore but then again these are what you call sec 4 talk and it can't be replaced huh? perhaps it can be replace with...

1) i am definitely going to be accepted into this JC and i will be accepted because i believed tt i will receive in whatever i prayed for.... matt21:22, my favourite verse tt i recite almost every minute whenever i pause to daydream abt IT

2) if my GOD is for me, then who can be against me? so i shan't be afraid of IT

3) i am so anxious and everyday i stay by the phone and my handphone that when every msg or call that comes through might be from THEM.. but romans 8:32 reminds me of something

seriously, hopefully we can all be encouraged by something tt will assure us.
for me, it's the simple but yet powerful symbol- the cross.

last but not least, welcome back da jie :)