at the cross

now i know what it means that it is all finished and done at the cross.
when jesus died,everything is done.
i just have to ask, believe and wait.
now i know what it means by not by my strength but by HIS.
when god's favour is with you, no matter how crapped up you are, you end up smelling like an ester ( ask chem students) which is so totally the opposite of crap.. sighs..

i will always remember this, never forget this chapter of my life which lasted for a few months. the DSA period i am referring to. ya, i will always remember how my heart was throbbing when miss lim called, how i rushed down and felt so breathless when i got there. how i cldnt sing the best focus sound that i cld, how i got so exasperated at answering the interview qns, how i waited for endless weeks to pass and still no call YET, and how i finally received a call at the track and field meet, how i cldnt hear the person properly, how i thought i heard there was an interview today, how i felt restless for the entire night and this morning to afternoon, how i met andrea and realised that i was in xueli's position, how i still thought there was and interview... until i received the letter...

i realise that everything was god, everything was his plan, everything that happened, happened because he planned it.. like i wasnt even planning to go for the auditions but i went in the end. this isnt by chance but it's god's miracle..

when i was giving up hope at times, something amazing happens the next minute..
praise god man! hallelujah!

i think through this, i really learnt to lean on god. it was never like before. i thk i won't ever bring myself to doubt him anymore and i will try even harder now to have faith and believe...

thank you mummy for always encouraging me, praying for me, sending smses that really comforted me, that i too, meditate on them, brought myself to keep on telling myself to believe...

thanks friends, nat, gen, chingx, siyun and everyone else who kept on reassuring me like mad..thanks for being so supportive and encouraging! chingx, i will see you next year ah! jiayou ok? and i'll see you next yr!!! nat and gen and chingx, we'll be the half half clique manx! siyun, hahahhahahahahahhahahahahhaha.. i will get to see.... hahahhah =)) can't wait!

thanks be to god! forever and ever!

sighs, to think that i doubted him because of chinese o's, to think i was angry w him when i had no right to... anw, i shld not look back, i am going to look forward and thank him for the every single goodness he has bestowed me with.. now i am even more convince that he was behind all these.

just like mum said, i just had to go, sit and drink coffee and get it =))

JESUS, YOU BLESSED ME WITH A WONDERFUL JC AND I THANK YOU AND GIVE YOU ALL THE GLORY AND HONOUR!
I WILL PROCLAIM THAT IT IS NOT ME BUT YOU WHO IS BEHIND ALL THESE AND I'LL SING OF YOUR LOVE FOREVER!
AMEN! TO GOD BE THE GLORY!

i thank you and praise you oh, god, not only at 12 every afternoon, but always! hallelujah!