idiot

well, that's me.
i felt so terrible this morning on christmas eve basically cause i cldn't wake up. slept at 3 wanted to wake up at 5 but i snoozed the alarm til 6 and then switched it off for gd.
when i woke up it was 8.15, only to realise that i made enai wait at the coffeeshop yet another time.zzz, sometimes i just hate myself. thank god hozea was with her and so i manage to feel a little bit better, but still idiotic.
so, i had 18 more cards to chiong from the night before.

finished by now already. but tts not why i am an idiot.
basically i thk i have seriously topsy turvy thking and sometimes when i know tt i shldnt be feeling a certain way, i just feel it. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

and that's why i thk i am idiotic. thank god that he still loves me despite of who i am. can't help but agree with serene on this that god sees pass our imperfections and accepts us for who we are.

christmas in a few more hrs..