hiatus

haha, i went on hiatus and that's what i am going to do just yet.
how ironic. i am updating now to say that i am going to stop writing til the exams are over?
ok. life's been err.. challenging.

1)trying to find joy in what i do, find joy in HIM.
2)trying to put off all other distractions till the end of exams.
3)trying to move away from the past knowing that the past was a memory blessed by GOD. and from there, move on. not going to be very helpful or good to hold on so much. have to be independent, strong.. not for myself but for others also.

coming to that, i was actually listening to dolly suite by gabriel faure that day and i immediately remembered the times i had practices with aiwei. and eine klein nachtmusik kv 525 by dearest Amadeus.

i miss prokofiev and mep. and i never realised how much i really loved it till i listened to it again. must be too blinded and irritated while studying it for MEP last yr. sigh.

4)trying to stop doing all sorts of stupid stupid things.

yes, that's life so far.
promos: 25sept-2nd october

i really want to go to j2. now now, don't come to me and say that is definitely possible or whatever consolation you have for me because it is really that difficult. ya, and i have to put in the extra effort to do so. and if you do not understand my predicament then i suggest you shouldn't come to me saying that i should not study so hard.
well, on second thoughts, ya, it's definitely possible to go to j2 because i have GOD. now, how's that?

i really hate it when a whole lot of contradictions start to plague my mind.

i love prokofiev and i think that the 2nd movement is awesome.