blast of events from 23/5 to 27/5

i rmb feeling really very emotional nowadays. because of a whole lot of things that happened.. some pretty personal ones, others include, how we had our last two practices for choir and of course, the long awaited concert yesterday!

so we had our best of syf sch concert tt day which was our 2nd last performance as an 06/07 batch. and we went onstage, although it wasnt our best perf. i felt it wasn't tt bad as well. enjoyed myself onstage. although i had a panic attack at the beginning of mate saule. suddenly no voice, then throat was conjested with phlegm. so had to clear throat subtly and try to come in.. but it only got better during jap game.

our 2nd last practice was held outside the auditorium, though it was a bit stuffy and hot.. it went not bad. besides some random occasions where we got scolded from miss lim. other than tt, we prayed for lishan as she left for china to visit relatives. sigh. I MISS LISHAN! please come back soon!!

the last prac was quite emotional. i felt really v bad for not making it a gd last practice for the seniors. well, it was definitely a memorable prac but sigh, have never seen miss lim so angry before. sorry seniors. but we still had one more fighting chance on our concert day! and yes, i believe we can do it.(we did it!) although this phrase has been overused,i still stand by it. i know hwachong choir can do it. (and we did it!)

oh there was dsa auditions that day also! just first round only la. so there will be more auditions coming up. but yes, it's was great. thanks all those who came arnd to help although they didn't have to. but yep. it made me thk of my dsa auditions. like how kaixuan and johnny interviewed me..

cantare-and so it is over. and im just thankful that god allowed it to end on a gd note.

sighs. i am really really happy that miss lim thought that we did our best last night and that we were not bad. =) i loved our jap game. i thought i cld really feel the hwach choir spirit when we sang that song. calme de nuit made my heart melt. seriously. everytime i sing calme, i feel so.. calm? lol. anyway, mate saule was ok, ma yi la was very very enjoyable. i felt.. gamelan, not tt gd for altos. haha, irritating part la.. deng 2,3,4 dong2,3,4 deng2,3,4. denga donga deng x3 (with screeching high Ds) haha, other than tt, it was ok for me. kaktus was quite retarded, cause it reminded me of how click wick called me a cactus throughout god-knows how many years cause there was once i had cactus hair :) hmm, jaacobin was.. haha, a bit zhao sia! and i thk i didnt hum the note loud enough. crap. i was practically whacking my wrist (with the tuning fork) so hard so that the sound will resound loud enough so that i cld get the note clear enough. but thk i didnt whack properly.. so heard a faint sound.. argh. and not my wrist has a slight bruise. INDICATION: i am too bony and skinny. shits. must eat more.

speaking abt eating.. i ate like one dumpling when i got home plus thousands of godiva chocolates (from my dearest classmates!) actually, i felt quite touch that they brought a gift for my performance. sigh.thanks for coming dears! and yes, thank you everyone else who came for the concert! the senior class! thanks for the rose! thank you nj pple! that includes chuwen and xianting! thanks for the flower! my sn friends janice, eugenia! (thanks for the flowers!!) serene, thanks for the sms and just thank you for being present to witness my first concert this yr. thanks siyun and soony! you all really bought a balloon =)) was it an obligation ah? hhaaha, love you guys too! :) and and and THANKYOU CLICKO WICKO! for the weirdo hand.. eh, name it leh! and and thanks for being such wonderful darlings! who made random poses and waves at me on stage. it just induced more smiles from me to the audience. im so sorry i cldnt go hang out with you all. had to go home in the end also. lol. yes, so i stayed with the choir at the concourse cam whoring like mad. seriously took so many photos tt i thk we can go on taking photos and not stop at all. didnt take with the guy seniors at all. :( ok, nvm, will take another day! have to take! have to take!

other than tt, thk the esplanade experience was just great! like the back stage is like woah! huge huge huge! and it feels like a hotel stayover kind of thing when you shuffle btwn diff. levels.. and the dressing room pwns la. there is a toilet with a few showers and a few cubicles.. and the toilet is so clean you can just walk in bare footed. like woah. so in btwn rehearsals we continued our random singing and cam whoring. haha. so fun! i felt tt e j1 girls got to bond a little when the j2s all left for rehearsals and we were left locked outside our dressing rooms. we randomed a bit with the tuning fork and started singing a few songs.

sigh, i love my batch mates a lot too. omg, i just realise tt, no matter how different our characters may be, in the end, this cca, CHOIR just bridges all of us.. just brings us all closer together because, i can see passion in everyone's eyes for this cca. i really saw it in everyone's eyes yesterday. it felt so gd when i see things tt i never saw before. yesterday was truly amazing. and i feel like tearing again. sigh, what will i do without choir? hmm, i sound as if i am a j2. but haha, yes.. it alr feels like this in j1. what more in j2 huh? thk i shall start arming myself with waterproof makeup as yuntian suggested. hurrhurr.

i really felt so.. i don't know how to describe. it's a feeling you get when you feel the hwachong choir spirit. seriously. like when we went back on stage after the performance, miss lim started saying all those stuff abt how she nvr saw us tt determined and all.. and how we cheered for everyone after tt.. how we hugged as an alto section and did our whooshes throughout the day.. this weird feeling came over me. my stomach started to feel weird. my goosebumps all appeared. and i feel a sudden surge of warmth within.. as well as this feeling of tearing. yes, i felt it too when we were along the corridor waiting for our turn to go onstage. the few moments where you feel as though time goes by so slowly before a performance. did a lot of deep breathings.will miss all those pple standing near me..who were there for me..

and i did tear. i teared throughout the entire day at random occasions. like when the j2 batch was singing their song onstage.. and we cld hear them through the speakers in the dressing rm. i just closed my eyes, pictured every single moment i had with them.. and flashes of things tt some of them said to me before, random memories just flooded my mind. teardrops came la. i don't know why either. silly me. cld have spoilt my makeup totally. but luckily it wasnt tt bad. it was only bad after we went back to the dressing rooms to change after the entire performance. yes, it was quite smudged esp. the mascara. i shall never attempt to put mascara anymore. just in case i tear and then in the end, everyth else melts in my eyes. eew. looked like some shit yesterday. :(

but now tt cantare is over. DEEP BREATHS! haha,though the FEELING that i was talking abt, is still there.. i thk it's time to get a grip on myself.time to move on. time to be strong and start being independent. the seniors brought us through so much.. through syf where we got tt gwh.. through cantare which ended on a gd note. so, we've got to improve and continue to work very hard to keep it there or just continue improving! there is so much more we can achieve, i am positive! so yes, we will work hard and not disappoint the seniors. we'll make you guys proud, and i promise that we will keep the choir spirit there, tt we'll not give up in times of difficulty but grit our teeth and persevere! and that's a promise! so, rest assure seniors, haha, seokhui said "go in peace" lol.

ohya, i love our alumni also. i thk hwachong voices have been offering so much help to the college section. like i have never seen so dedicated seniors who still come back to help out. as kaii said, they acted as a buffer, to help protect us from miss lim sometimes. sigh, love them too. thk we're very very lucky. and our teachers have been great also. to thk they actually wrote us cards to encourage us to perform well. haha, tts really nice of them!

i thk this is an unforgettable concert. it really is. sigh. time to work hard! come on pple! we can do it! i still thk god is really gd and in control of everyth. and i am leaving everything to him.. so, cherie, have more faith tt he's leading you the right way.

i <3333 CANTARE!