the other side?

the grass always seems to be greener on the other side.

this morning, i'm reminded of the whole aspect of leaning on god's wisdom. and i really detest to make choices and decisions because most often than not, i end up making the choices and decisions that would gain approval from people. it's almost like a choice made seeking for acceptance, or sometimes even out of pure responsibility.

and yes, this verse just kept resounding in my mind this morning.

1 cor 1:25 for the foolishness of god is even wiser than the wisdom of man and the weakness of god is even stronger than the strength of man.

isn't that breath-taking? you know, the minute i read it, i went "wow!" many a times we are so caught up with many things, thoughts, we forget who God is. or maybe just the fact that he is big.

and you know, on sunday in church we discussed a lot abt surrendering to GOD. giving 100% surrender to HIM. i realise i have not really done so. for this period of time, i know i am still clinging on to one thing, at least, that i self-declared it consists of half my stress level. yes, and i certainly have not depended on GOD's wisdom to guide me, to teach me what to do.. i realise that some decisions i make, i do it just because i think i am in charge.. and not even praying abt them.

so i have decided, that i am going to depend on HIM for wisdom. depend on HIS wisdom to guide me into making decisions.

:( i really hate it when it bugs me so much. for some reason or another.
WAIT. god says, wait.