i quit

i think i will just stop writing for awhile. and yes, i havent been writing much here anyway. ya, i thk i want to stop writing firstly because i thk i really can't bring myself to update anymore. too many things have happened, too many hidden, too many unsaid, too many "you-won't understand(s)", too many vague entries, too many surface sharings.. and yes, i know this is not being very accountable but ya, come talk to me if you see me arnd in church or corridors in sch if you really want to la. =)

but yes, anyway, at this point of time, there's nth much interesting abt my daily life unless you want to be reminded of sch days. (which i doubt you wld want to, unless you are working of course) but yes.. sigh, what am i going to do if i don't study?

can't take it. i'm sorry i can't completely be honest with you all regarding so many things. maybe cause i can't face it myself, or perhaps i can;t come to terms with them. at this point, i dont even know what. and i'll just end up whining and being a comprain-queen.. yes.

that's it. thanks for being interested thus far. hope to write soon? prob. when i feel that i amr eady to be more open.
xie xie.

heal over

i am tired. as usual. what's new?

isn't very difficult to see why
you are the way you are
doesn't take a genius to realise
that sometimes life is hard
it's gonna take time
but you just have to wait
you're gonna be fine
but in the mean time
i'm over here, lady,
let me wipe your tears away
come a little little out, baby,
cause you'll heal over, heal over
heal over,
someday.

got to jiayou.

i hope

i hope that this wont be a 3 fen zhong re du thing.
(wow, my chinese is improving because of sch)

HURR. anyway,i thk i have been happier in sch yesterday. haha, like miracle man. ok it starte out really badly because i got 1 more demerite point tt makes it 9 up to date. urgh. and tts because i was late and i didnt bother waiting at the bus stop but i just walked in and let myself be caught. hurr hurr. sigh. and i was super upset cause my ez link got confiscated and i had to go to the office to get it back later in the day.

but i thk i felt so much better after choir. just felt so excited and happy singing the sch song. or had this surge of renewed happiness. haha, for once i actually feel happy in sch. sigh, maybe i have come to let things go, or decided tt this is it man. i shld just try to be happy although i feel that sch life is really killing to the max!

haha, maybe cause the previous night i had so much fun talking to the favouritest people in the world! ahha, laughed so much at gen's place. oh my.. i miss stnicholas girls sch! oh well, how to love the sch before i love my cca. hmm, never man. i thk i shld try to love the sch through loving my cca. that wld help much better.

okay, see everyone else soon =))

blocks, post blocks and sch again

blocks: err, i jsut want to trust god in it. tt he has his plans and they are gd for me. thank god in all circumstances. i havent got the results yet though. haha. god is still gd evermore and forevermore he shall be. amen.

post blocks: shopping withe friends was really really gd. no amt of words can express how much i miss and love them.
joel's b day bbq party was so so so awesome. i love bay bbqs. and thanks to all those who helped cooked and sacrificed their own meals. haha. yes, really thank all those who helped.. felt so abd sitting there just eating non stop from 6 to 9 plus. and i didnt know bananas cld be grilled. thanks nevertheless to daniel, graham, serene, kenneth, joshua, wilfred, dominic... and to the guys who started the real gd fire for chicken wings. wha, really gd meal tt night. and we got high. really high. i thk it was either ice lemon tea, beer in the sauce for the wedges, or the sip of wine i took, or.. just me.

transformers is a very very gd show. nicer than pirates 3 i feel. yes. not jsut mindless firing machines. i was tearing towards the end of the movie. argh. so touching. thk i havent really thought into the movie yet. shall spend some time thking abt the lessons tt we can learn when i feel more free.

and it's sch again. why do i dislike sch so much? cause it takes up and consumes so much energy.

enrichment courses tmr and thurs. yay. massage.

first choir prac tmr after hols. yay!

i am so annoyed now. yay!

and i am going to slp now.. hurrah!