its coming

3 more days.. i am so excited excited.. ya..

ilovecamps..
i really want to see and experience His presence.
i know that feeling. when you see all the younger ones slowly being filled, empowered..by the holy spirit..
it's just so amazing to see God work in other people's lives.
of course, i want to find my "true self" at camp also..

yea, i don't know if you guys know abt it, maybe some of you do, i have been feeling quite in a way.. "talentless".. but then again, some might say i am musically inclined but still, i love music.. i love my guitar, my piano but piano can get very irritating at times.. ya.. but i am not entirely gd at them..

or maybe some wld agree i have the gift of the gap.. start talking can't stop talking a lot.. kou ruo xuan he.. =)

i am not gd in my studies entirely also.. whther i am more of an arts person or science person, i still can't really tell..

so, mediocracy creeping in..

that's something i hope to find at the end of camp that god will indeed show me..

of course, i am really geared up for camp i guess, i can't wait..
i feel so motivated to motivate everyone else.. ya..
i am all set to encourage..AND MOTIVATE

WHERE'S YOUR MORALE BOOSTER?

stomp stomp, clap clap, YEA!

amen! may God truly bless this camp..

job attachment,camp and sch

ok, i had job attachment at mount E..
quite fun generally although some times were very very boring..

had a little hands on experience when using the B.P machine and serving food to the patients..
the nurses were nice, some talked to me, while others were quite nonchalant abt my existence.. so, ya..but oh well, cant blame them, they are nurses.. haha.. well,half the time sat there and listen to them gossip abt their patients and all.. so, ya, no wonder nursing drove my aunt mad at SGH..basically had an experience that i wont forget there..

so church camp is coming up in abt 8 days.. and really, i feel so unprepared.. but i do know my expectations for camp and what i hope to gain from it..

unprepared in a sense, cause i am leading 1 session of worship.. i have kind of got down to thinking of it and i am in the midst of preparing already.. but the thing is i am sort of quite distracted by a lot of things.. so, my focus is not really there all the time..its bad cause i am actually distracted by alot of other things, burdened by a lot.. mostly of sch stuff, choir stuff..so ya,i will be really praying and asking GOD for guidance and the ability to focus on HIM, and that my spiritual walk with HIM will grow even closer esp, when camp is nearing. do join me in prayer =) thanks!

so, till then..8 more days and counting..

well, i am tired of going to sch practically everyday for every single thing.. quite sick.. looks like my entire wk is packed as usual.. and i am tired.. i just get so sick of everything already..especially sch.. and i have to start studying..

pray cherie, pray.. =)

post camp symptoms

ok, so had a student leaders camp in sch on friday and sat. went for kayaking expedition on the sat.(full day)
it was a great experience though, friday was cool.. learnt alot of thought provoking stuff.. really made me thk quite a bit.. and at night was even nicer.. haha, did a lot of lame stuff..

sat was a tiring day. went early in the morning to saf yacht club.. learnt all the basics of kayaking, then got to try on the kayak for awhile.. i must say nat and i are pretty gd kayakers.. managed to do alot of stuff.. so, we had fun.. saw jelly fishes which seriously freaked me out a lot..

then set out for the expedition after lunch in the afternoon. it was from saf yacht club all the way to some sembawang club place.. no idea, but it was kayaking in the open sea for abt 5-7 km.. the journey was long and arduous.. seriously, scary sometimes too especially when we start going in the direction of the shipyard and huge tankers.. ya, never know when you might get crashed up by a boat..journey there was okay.. cause energy still there, and current and wind in our favour.. but it was difficult in a sense because the wind keeps blowing you off track.. and your boat keeps going in a zig zag manner, not straight ahead to our destination.. and seriously was really complaining like crazy.. it was very very tiring towards the end..journey back was even more tiring to go against the current and wind.. nuts.. so at the end of the 14km, we were dead tired.. but tts not the end of the story.. had to carry the boat to the wash bay and then to the area of where they keep the kayaks..so tired by the end but really learnt a lot..

so, the 2nd day, my forehead and thighs are really sunburnt.. very sunburnt..muscles aching like crazy.. cldnt get up literally from the bed to get to church.. but managed to go for sunday sch though i was really "not there" mentally..today, i am feeling much better though..but my forehead is peeling now and for some reasons my lips are having sores.. ya, very frustrating.. having ulcers on my tongue? and for some reason my left hyand is a bit sunburnt near the knuckles area.. either that or they are just swollen.. so, its like as if i am sufering from hand foot mouth disease.. eeyer.. so err.. i dont thk so la..

so, really praying tt all those side effects are going away soon..

went to mount e today to report for work.. so, we waited really long for the manager.. then realise tt we only have to work for 2 days from 9-5pm. so, quite ok la, but we will be split up into diff wards, 1 person 1 ward.. yup, so i suppsoe it will be quite boring.. and err.. ya, i will be workign on wed and fri.

yay, watching harry potter on thurs.. and jsut realise i got free tickets to narnia.. might be able to get extra free tickets.. so... haha..

ok, i feel like scratching my face off my face.. ok, that doesnt make sense cause if i scratch off my face, i wont have a face.. but i still want to scratch my face.. urrgh..

"go get yourself a boyfriend then only he will listen to all your maonings and pamper you"

guess who is it this time?

its mum. -________________________-

yes, what parents i've got..woots..

camp camp camp

woohoo, tml's camp at sch, 2 days 1 night. short though but cool, i thk.
canoe expedition on saturday! frm sembawang to seletar.. is tt very far? ok, tt seems smthg gd to accomplish.. haha,cant wait.. packed finish my bag.. =)

i love camps. but i am glad its just a short one though.. yea..

see ya! woohoo, i'll tell you all abt it when i am back.. =))))))))))

chow!

pain

i am like having sore eye.. pain, theres this lump growth in the inenr eye lid.. pain.. but my eyes not swollen yet..YET..

=(

me: my eyes very pain, i thk i got sore eye la..
dad: "so that day you go HCI look at which guys ah?"
me: -___________________________-

no comments..

damn

all i can say is, damn. damn it. urgh. this dman it sucks..freaking upset now..
actually i caused it so, shldnt be the one complaining but still, damn.

now i know how hard it is.. everything is..its not easy as it seems.
i can only pray now.

there is really no way out in every problem. thk everything presents itself in grey, no black and white if you know what i mean..
there are sometihing which really seriously cant be solved..as in there is no outright solution to the problem.
and in every decision there're definitely pros and cons. so how can we make decisions when there are both postivie and negative effects? so whats the choice i'm going to make?

weirdo

today's a sunday! yep, woke up late for church but still went for sunday sch though.. haha, hmm, adult bible class had a sharing on mission trips, quite encouraging and in a way kind of interesting..

went for lunch with the class.. haha, aunty lay tsin treated us! haha, lunch was great!

went out with lydia, lois and ben for sky high.. the show looked kind of dumb at first but its quite nice surprisingly.. yea, thanks ben for the movie! haha..

so i'm back at home waiting for piano to start leaving home abt 5.. yup =( dont like peeaano(accd to ben) but ms chye has been really nice so.. cant really complain =)

hmm, something happened today that kind of put me off/ turn me off (whatever it is)
ya.. weird.. really weird.. ok, when i say somehting is weird, means its bad.. hhaha, trying to remain positive you see.. so i say chinese os are weird, yup, means they are bad.

so, anw, yup, really just put me off.. that kind of attitude. i am sorry but ya. but really, shant be upset over such minor things.

yep, but i thk YOU seriously got issues that you've got to sort out yourself ya? meanwhile i will just pray that you'll sort out stuff that's bothering you to turn you into.. THIS.. which is not yourself.god bless.

i love sundays.
i miss teh-C!

TEH-C is.....
1)a drink that keeps me warm on rainy mornings
2)a drink that quenches my thirst on sunny days
3)a drink that we both consume over Breakfast
4)most importantly, its a drink that remind me of YOU. =)

disclaimer: both YOU(S) do not happen to be the same person.

sunday, happy sunday!

thankyou mummy

ok, went out with nat and ching before learning lab.. went to fish and co. which tastes really great.. =) anw, ching is a boring person with no childhood.. hmm, nat and i wanted to play hide and seek with her at borders but she just left when she cldnt find us =( sad...

anw, went shopping with mummy after learning lab.. bought so much stuff.. woohoo.. THANKYOU MUMMY!

had a great day..

You think of me

You think of me- New Creation Church

You bring me to Your throne
Whisper love songs to me
You think of me
You call me Your own

Sweet words of love You bring
Your child i'll ever be
You think of me
You call me your own

Nothing can change the way
You feel for me
Your love for me
Is greater than anything my heart can ever know

You think of me
You're loving me
You're leading me to Your side
You believe in me
You set me free
Cos' You love me Lord
You love me Lord