random thoughts

well, its quite late now, sitting here, surfing through blogs, blogs of pple i know, others whom i dont know.. then suddenly this thing just popped into my head as i read the random entries.. that pple, can just suddenly walk into your life, so miraculously, so real, yet, the nxt moment they just walk out of your life, and probably dont remember you anymore..it's kind of sad whenever i start to randomly think abt those whom i dont contact anymore, and it's sad cause it nvr used to be this way..and it's sad cause you realise tt you actually have let go of tt friendship, putting it away on a shelf,like an old book, leaving it there to collect dust..

it's just sad. somehow, i feel drifty and torn apart for some reason or another.

but no worries, i am just in this somber and reflectivce mood as usual.

thinking...

eating at swensens greedily 

our earthquakes( free of charge, wonder why we got 1 more, suppose to have 1 only--eyes at professional mich and cc--) 

our bake rice( free of charge) 

our 3 gold rushes (free of charge) 

this term.....i feel blessed with lovely seat partners 

blessed with a wonderful clique 

blessed with people to share your downs.. 

but i fought and survived.. 

this term..there were times i nearly died 

of course i had my gang of paikias to back me up! 

but i couldnt have dont it without HIM. glory and honour to GOD! 

its finally over

its finally over, today's the 27th the day i have been looking forward to..yea, had so much joy and fun today.

firstly we got back our ppr this morning, deproved by 1 pt! but it was still ok i guess, ya, worked so hard for it, it was a long and tiring struggle i guess, but well, it kind of paid of.. still thinking how i will be able to survive term 3, it's going to be a tougher term than anything else, and then after term 3 it wld be the end of yrs. this yr is extremely fast can?

yea, secondly, we had a great deal of bonding in class today, cause mrs seah's not in sch, and mr mohan's not in sch, so the periods after recess was all free until we return home. yea, talked a lot of rubbish with the chinese scholars.. i will miss shiying, xinzhu, tian tian, ren meng, lin shuang, sesheng etc. i will miss them to death, they are so nice actually, haha.. yupps, look forward to receive an entire bunch of bing tang hu lu when they return! yum!

thirdly, had fun at swensens today with ching, lix, gen and mich! haha, my gosh, we ate like a pig can? we ate worth of $72.70 worth of food.. we had 2 earthquakes(icecream with 9 flavours per bowl) then we had 3 gold rushes..(another type of icecream..and 2 bake rice!( salmon and mushroom and curry bake rice) they were seriously damn gd... and the best part was to walk out of the restaurant without paying a single cent, not even service charge! woohoo! haha, cause ching had free vouchers.. but i wonder why we got 1 more free earthquake since we suppose to get one only.. had a lot of bonding at swensens too.. laugh to death at stupid things i say, silly things lix said(like TWEENIES) HAHA.. yea, it was great..

well, went shopping at ps with mich and lix after eating a hearty meal..had fun at yamaha.. seeing act cool pple practise on the drums and guitars.. hehe.. then we went to spotlight..to get lix's stuff..

now, sitting at home blogging, reflecting.. really glad i managed to have so much fun today.. well, god really blessed me.. amen!

well, i have a lot to do during the hols actually, have so many assignments, 1000 word essay??? yea.. tts bio.. and there's still more. sighs. well, have so many activities, so many camps to attend, and extra lessons in sch, and oral exam coming up.. woah! really dont feel as if its a holiday.. well, but i do treasure the time i will get to spend with my friends during these activities.. well, what can i say?

i am so blessed.

liberated

liberated is the title of the compre we had today! and hoho! we were so not in the mood to do ''liberated'' because we are simply not liberated yet.

why is this so?
BECAUSE WE STILL HAD MATHS TEST AT THAT MOMENT.

but now, our maths test is over. and i thk i can only get an A1 if i am veryveryvery lucky.

but, we are still not liberated because we still have to finish the summary of the compre ''liberated''

but that's a minor issue.. even so, i still dont feel liberated.ya, it's just that, you expect yourself to have a sense of ''euphoria'' (as quoted from the psg) but in the end you dont feel anything when your last paper is over..and maybe even feel ''despair'' (quoted again from the psg). yupps, no idea why? sometimes when you dont have tests the nxt wk, you feel as if something's missing in your life. haha, dont kill me after reading this cause i know how happy everyone is.. but really, i dont scream and shout after the test tt i am so happy cause i feel so liberated of tests and stress.. but i dont feel anything at all.. and it is sad.. when looking back thinking abt how you and your friends used to rejoice like crazy when the semester ends.. sighs.. but one thing i know for sure..

where the spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom!




where the spirit of the Lord is there is freedom
where the spirit of the Lord is there is freedom
there is peace, there is love, there is joy

it is for freedom you've set us free
it is for freedom you've set us free

i'm free, i'm free
we'll walk in your freedom, walk in your liberty
we'll dance in your freedom, dance in your liberty.

I LOVE CHING TO DEATH.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHING :) I LOVE YOU A LOT A LOT!

:) ching is such a nice cute girl... haha... she is so cute!! i love my fellow c!! :)) so poor thing... she'll be all alone tmr... at home reading joy luck club.. HAHA... i am so mean! we are so mean to leave her alone just because we can't eat swensen's!

i feel so sad for chingy... haha... pe was so dumb today... haha sohteng was goalkeeper for handball... then she was telling ching a joke and she let the ball in!!! HAHAHAHAHA!!!!! so funny!! we were laughing like shit... and then later the ball got in by accident... so damn funny.. i love handball and pe...

i hate lit... because it's so irritating... everything was on suyuan today! and i didnt know anything... so sad... was panicking during the test for question b... and so was ching and nat! haha!

happy birthday again, ching!

solution

ok, i am longing for my hols, really, its 10 more days! ah..

well, getting tired of never ending tests every wk?

getting so jealous when you hear that others are playing and slacking away since their exams are over?

wishing you could get a gd night's rest without having to toss and turn in bed, worrying abt the next day?

yupps, the solution is,

to,

let the joy of the LORD be your strength.

yupps, my mum says that she used to say this to me when i was a baby and i used to laugh and giggle to myself after that.. like err.. HAHA.

well, thx for cheering me up this few days, i am ok now, just having loads of afterthoughts.. ya, need some time to process my thinkings but well, maybe i shld just forget the whole thing tt i am thinking abt, ya, not a gd thought actually. sighs.

choir had polling today, like woohoo, half the time, dont know who to vote for..
well, i hope that everything remains the same, despite what we will be going through =)

yupps, so meanwhile, wont be able to go bay until ho;s start. =) which is in 10 days! i am hanging on like crazy!

the joy of the Lord is my strength!

pathetique

pathetic.

yes, this was what i felt yesterday. just so pathetic.
ya, felt so horrid that i am just so slow and cant get stuff right as fast as others. just felt so lousy and ya, stupid.

and the worse thing was no one reached out...

''everyone has the same brain, it's just whether you work hard or not''

yea, was thinking abt this quote yesterday. well, maybe it's just tt i dont work hard enough.

was rushing my lit assignment and chinese zuo wen all on friday.

ya, it was my fault tt i didnt have enough discipline to do it on thursday night. yea, i fell asleep.

what kind of excuse is that anyway?

and you know when i am stressed out doing things last minute, i panic, i feel frustrated, i cry?

which didnt help to rectify the situation either.

maybe i felt better after sobbing in silence in the cubicle?

praying that GOD will comfort, praying that i will stay calm..

perhaps i felt better after people start trying to cheer you up?

after realising your puffy red eyes, after hearing you sniff a little in your seat?

perhaps i felt better when i received a msg of encouragement from a friend?

maybe it's when someone in your position keeps you company through the afternoon, occasionally making you feel you are not alone in this, occassionally making you laugh?

i dont know.

all i know its that, it all felt better cause GOD was around.

it all felt better cause at the end of the day you learn new lessons.

it all felt better cause you completed your work.

it all felt better.

taking a cold drink, breathing deep breaths, closing your eyes, saying a prayer of thanks.

and then you open your eyes to face the world again.

hoping this time you will face it bravely, knowing that there's an omniscient being always beside you.

a sad day

everyones feeling blue today..
ya, quite sad now too cause so manyfeel so sad.
yea, well

first thing, nat and aiwei, cheer up k? ya, dont feel so upset.. actually, i wld probably be dejected and upset if i am in your position.. sighs, i also dont know what to do to cheer you all up.. yea, well, just letting you all know tt i will be praying for you all every night from now.. =) yupps, cheer up k? well, i dont know also, i feel upset for you two now.. sighs, ILOVE BOTH OF YOU!

ya, we might be getting chem paper back today. everyone said it was very easy k? and i thk i minus 10 marks already. =( yea, crap la, cant get my a1.. sighs, well, i just want to remain positive now and leave it all to God. yes, and HIS WILL be done.

got to buck up on my practical. playing really horribly now. and i still have so much hmwk to do. have to finish them tonight. all tonight. sighs, have to be discipline. cause i am nvr disciplined..

CHERIE, MUST JIAYOU!

15 MORE DAYS TO HOLS.!

GRATEFUL

ok, i am not suppose to blog actually , suppose to be studying chem for tml since i have free period now. haa, but well, cant resist k? yupps, have to thank chingy!

THX CHING DEAR! LOVE YA! yupps, thx for taking time to help me do my nice blog =) yuppa, thx for taking time to do it instead of studying for chem haha.. oops! but yupps. BIG THANKS TO YOU! VERY GRATEFUL =)

yes, grateful that God blessed me for history exam. well, cant say tt i will do really well for source base qn. ya, but i am grateful enough. yupps. God did bless me!


I'm forever grateful to You
I'm forever grateful, for the cross
I'm forever grateful, to You
That You came, to seek and save the lost.


YUPPS, hanging in there, 17 more days to end of sch.. oh yes yes yes! 17 more days. and i know many of you have finished your exams.. yea, well, i have weekly common tests. sighs.

but i am hanging in there.

okay wait shit I just realised I forgot the word simplicity.
ISNT THIS LIKE DAMN NICE <333333333
HELLO DARLING.
PLEASE BE HELL GRATEFUL cos I damn hell did this all for you when I'm supposed to be studying chem!
And I GAVE YOU MY TAGBOARD CODES so it'll look NICE and PRESENTABLE, HAHA.
Okay your simplicity word coming up, though i think the one you drew is quite out of place.
And I hope that's the font you're talking about O.o

YOU BETTER LOVE ME

/ fellow ccccccccc

gdbye

hey world,

sighs, dont know whats wrong with me now, but have been very whiny today. and i still feel whiny. ya, suddenly, time passes really quickly.. i cant wait for 27th may.

23 more days! iwill survive 23 more days of bleah-ness and then i will enjoy like crazy once more! let me see, what to do during the hols.. got to start planning now..

-do loads of catching up with loads of pple.
1)write letters to everyone i know to express my jubilation.
2)meet up with people for lunch or brunch or dinner or tea or whatever!
3)meet up with enai for breakfast every sunday.. (you're coming home soon?)
4)go out with my cliques! maybe to watch movie!
5)go to zoo to see chipmunks with aiwei!
6)hmms.. organise some outing for my beloved sec 3 sunday sch class..!

-slack
1)play computer for dont know how many hours
2)watch tv!
3)sleep for at least 12 hrs per day!

-eat
1)newton circus for char kway tiao!
2)crystal jade
3)marche!
4)serangoon garden kopitiam!
5)sushi!

but of course.. see whether i got time to do all these la.. ha! i will make time esp to catch up with my friends.

june: to complete all the online review tests for all subjects.

1st wk: MEP CAMP.
SOMEONE'S GOING TO CUT MY GUMS!

2nd wk: MEP MAKE UP LESSON

3rd wk: chinese oral trial test with a preacher of communism and a condemner of people who dont do well in chinese

4th wk: someone's gonna extract my teeth...

yupps, so many things.. maybe not alot but tts all for the time being..
i am sure there is more to come..

but i am looking forward to my hols. i need a break! no, not a kit kat.. but a break! i need to slp..!

thats if i survive this!

this wk: bio test (wed)

nxt wk:

(mon)
history elective END OF YR EXAM! (that's cause i do hist for 1st sem, and social studies for the nxt semester)

plus! OCC wants a mep test too! (not confirmed)

(wed)
chemistry common test

(thurs)
chinese common test (tentatively)

the following wk:

(tues)
A math test

the rest.. i dont know.. but all these for now.. sighs

so.. the solution

i am not going to blog until the hols come.. or at least when all these are over. sighs..

just realise tt hist exam is nxt wk.. have not even started cause there's bio to study.. and after hist. there is chem..! what nonsense.. this sch is killing me.. so many tests on the wk of our exam.. at first chem math and chinese was on the same wk as the exam la. tsk. spare a thought for students man!

ya.. see, i told you i am whiny. i am always whiny during sch term.

yea, gonna miss blogging.

bye world.