I <3 SNAKES!

ok, jsut had prelim english oral. and the convo topic was quite retarded. hehe.
mrs sng: " so, what do you thk abt snakes?"

immediate response in my brain: oh man, gen and i were just talking abt it like yesterday on our way home! haha! hilarious..

what a topic!

anw, i was feeling =l ins ch today before p.e. partly because i had to play softball and run in the worse situation i was in ever. eew.. and yea, i just felt sad..

quote of the day:
shh.. envy kills the cat, destroys the dog, breaks the heart and brings me further away from you, and i shld have seen it coming.
yup, check out www.quoteoftheday.com

(ok, please dont try to go into that website. i just talked crap) just like i tricked nat that weixiang died for the 9pm chinese drama and got her so upset that she had to chase me everywhere to whack me before assembly. and how i tricked her that SPA for sec3s is an enrichment prog. where they go to the swimming complex to have spa.. hahah.. no la.. spa btw is smthg like o levels science prac. just that it's in sec3 tts all..hilarious.. so, sec3s, rmb to bring your swimsuit on your spa days ok? look pretty and sexy, maybe the teachers will give you more marks! dont be like me who forgot to bring my blouse and tie for oral today.
TGFD: thank god for daddies! haha, thank god my father brought my blouse and tie to sch willingly, i suppose..

yes, pe. was quite fun! considering i felt better and happier after that. haha, i hit a ball that flew ok!! and thats amazing cause usually i hit balls that bounce on the field instead of flying! and everyone got to run back to home base!! yay!!! but i thk i felt happier after english!

english lessons remind me of a lorna whiston class where you ahve a caucasian teacher who teaches really interestingly. just that we have an australian teacher, mr nahn is so hilarious. we play games that aids in our english during lessons ok? play games, guess riddles, and lessons are just hilarious when he starts reading and adds in sound effects here and there. i thk hearing our funny compositions that we read in class really gets us laughing! hahah!

this is my favourite sentence! "my grandmother was a beauty. she haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaddddddd an oval face." hahah, gen is so going to kill me when she sees this. haha, well it seems that the word had has to be pronounced in a longer sound. so you dont just chop it off as 'had' but rather elongate it to 'haaaaad' =)) we are all going to read in a british accent very soon.
oh how delectable!

ok, off to study math and ss now. i am so slack... cant stand it.. byebye.
i love snakes because they are so adorable..
sssssssssssssssigning off!

at the cross

now i know what it means that it is all finished and done at the cross.
when jesus died,everything is done.
i just have to ask, believe and wait.
now i know what it means by not by my strength but by HIS.
when god's favour is with you, no matter how crapped up you are, you end up smelling like an ester ( ask chem students) which is so totally the opposite of crap.. sighs..

i will always remember this, never forget this chapter of my life which lasted for a few months. the DSA period i am referring to. ya, i will always remember how my heart was throbbing when miss lim called, how i rushed down and felt so breathless when i got there. how i cldnt sing the best focus sound that i cld, how i got so exasperated at answering the interview qns, how i waited for endless weeks to pass and still no call YET, and how i finally received a call at the track and field meet, how i cldnt hear the person properly, how i thought i heard there was an interview today, how i felt restless for the entire night and this morning to afternoon, how i met andrea and realised that i was in xueli's position, how i still thought there was and interview... until i received the letter...

i realise that everything was god, everything was his plan, everything that happened, happened because he planned it.. like i wasnt even planning to go for the auditions but i went in the end. this isnt by chance but it's god's miracle..

when i was giving up hope at times, something amazing happens the next minute..
praise god man! hallelujah!

i think through this, i really learnt to lean on god. it was never like before. i thk i won't ever bring myself to doubt him anymore and i will try even harder now to have faith and believe...

thank you mummy for always encouraging me, praying for me, sending smses that really comforted me, that i too, meditate on them, brought myself to keep on telling myself to believe...

thanks friends, nat, gen, chingx, siyun and everyone else who kept on reassuring me like mad..thanks for being so supportive and encouraging! chingx, i will see you next year ah! jiayou ok? and i'll see you next yr!!! nat and gen and chingx, we'll be the half half clique manx! siyun, hahahhahahahahahhahahahahhaha.. i will get to see.... hahahhah =)) can't wait!

thanks be to god! forever and ever!

sighs, to think that i doubted him because of chinese o's, to think i was angry w him when i had no right to... anw, i shld not look back, i am going to look forward and thank him for the every single goodness he has bestowed me with.. now i am even more convince that he was behind all these.

just like mum said, i just had to go, sit and drink coffee and get it =))

JESUS, YOU BLESSED ME WITH A WONDERFUL JC AND I THANK YOU AND GIVE YOU ALL THE GLORY AND HONOUR!
I WILL PROCLAIM THAT IT IS NOT ME BUT YOU WHO IS BEHIND ALL THESE AND I'LL SING OF YOUR LOVE FOREVER!
AMEN! TO GOD BE THE GLORY!

i thank you and praise you oh, god, not only at 12 every afternoon, but always! hallelujah!

congratulations and jubilations =))

congratulations NAT and GEN!
looks like the both of you have each other for company!!
and yep, congratsssssss.. haha, i feel so happy for you all!

gen, have fun watching tbs all day long ok? don't worry i'll all the more be happy to listen to your stories and your observation of his every single move! haha, he's a rat =)) eh! you better steal pamugun and suriram scores for me i tell you, maybe in return i will give you either el hambo scores or.... hopefully bin nam na scores!!!! haha, i would prefer to be able to trade bin nam na scores though..

ohman... CONGRATS the both of you, silly women!!!! and gen, looks like you'll get to meet amanda!! and nat! now you don't need to worry abt him, because gen will be there to shield and protect you, to run away and hide with you along corridors or behind the library shelves!! have fun man toots!!!!

quick quick call me call me, i want my 2nd call!!!!
well, i can only keep telling myself that everything happens IN HIS TIME!!!! and that "patience is a virtue", i'll be virtuous and practice virtuousity by waiting! =)))

IN HIS TIME, IN HIS TIME
HE MAKES ALL THINGS BEAUTIFUL
IN HIS TIME!!
LORD PLEASE SHOW ME EVERYDAY
AS YOU'RE TEACHING ME YOUR WAY
THAT I'LL DO JUST WHAT YOU SAY
IN HIS TIME!

i realise that for every single thing, there's really seriously a verse in the bible and a song to always comfort, reassure and make me happy.. hmm, how marvellous and amazing isnt it? =))))))

step down

today, i finally announced my dearest successor..
serene seow, you can do it and you are the president of choir..come on, repeat after me!
haha, i love my successor.
somehow i didnt cry but there were many occassions where i felt like just tearing..
anyway, i trust tt the choir is in very good hands and so, choir, pls trust the excomm's judgement ok?
sighs, i jsut realise tt as of a few hrs ago, i entrusted all my responsibilities to serene, and somehow it feels like a burden off my shoulders. but i feel so uneasy and sad tt now, every tues and thurs is just extended lessons after sch and more studying at home after sch. of course the sch hasnt announced a total step down for all sec4s, so we still have to be at choir on thursdays, yea, not a bad thing, 2 more weeks or so only, and really want to watch the new comm. step up to take charge.. =)))) still rmb how unsure i was of myself, the first practice i stood there..that was 1 yr ago.. =(
anyway, i know my wonderful comm.07 can do it.

sn choir is going to get GWH next yr. yes we will!

anw, i got my first heart attack today when i got the 1st call. yes. i was so happy and in a sense relieved tt i know i got it. feeling quite contented actually, nothing beats being in the choir of a wonderful conductor. but of course i am praying that i receive my 2nd call soon, next week perhaps? yea, still praying really hard. but this taught me a very gd lesson and i really want to say that it's not by my strength but of divine intervention. GOD has been so great. and really, somehow everything just unfolds and comes out all well. =)) PRAISE GOD, HALLELUJAH! i pray that miracle no. 2 will happen. and i realise tt if i believe, pray, and if it's the will of GOD, i will receive =))

GOD IS GOOD, TERNER NER NER NER NER NER
HE IS SO GOOD, TERNER NER NER NER NER NER
GOD IS GOOD, TERNER NER NER NER NER NER
HE IS SO GOOD, TERNER NER NER NER NER NER
SO GOOD, TER TER
SO GOOD, TER TER
GOD IS GOOD........TER TER TER TER.... ( TRUMPET BLOWS AWAY)

CALL ME, SO I CAN SING THIS SONG TO YOU MAN.. ANW, ITS THE TUNE OF THE BURGER KING ADVERT. SONG. =))))

1st july

5 next wk but i spent my entire day in sch ushering inquisitive parents and kids arnd the sch compund, tell them more abt sn, marketted e sch. lost count of how many times my throat cracked. then came home for tuition on relative velocity which made me feel like the stupidest person alive. =) that probably summed up my day pretty much.

anw, i think the cca showcase reminded me of alot of things that happened a year back. many gd things. seriously, i agree with you, i thk leadership makes you think and reflect so much, your strengths, weaknesses. i must say tt i am glad i manage to pull through of course not by my strength but by the will of God. but one thing that made me regret alot is the action of smiling at one, along the corridors,trying to strike a conversation but in the end, an irritated look of disgust just stares right back, in your face. and sometimes i wonder if it is you had a bad day, got up from the wrong side of bed, got scolded by your parents? tt is what i regret. i regret not being able be that ideal person, that somehow even if i smiled so much, did so many things, i still failed to be that miss nice girl that you would expect me to be. many say that she is the bad guy while i am always the gd one.. but in this case i thk no matter how much you thk of me as not the bad person, i still end up as one. miss low, i think you inspire me a lot with tt sentence, thanks for sharing it.

one of the many things tt came to my mind was again how i took many people for granted. i took A for granted and its so weird now because communication seems to be at such a far distance from each other, both literally and figuratively. i took J for granted. i got irritated constantly and even expressed my irritation or exasperation although J was very nice to me, did everything, worried abt everything for me, shared my burden in everything. like wth was i thinking when i got cross for nothing. and now, the thought of not working with J anymore makes me feel upset. although i don't show it, i thk J helped me survive through that 3 hrs, 2 times each wk. i took ML for granted and i didnt even appreciate the last 10 mins of echo that rang so loudly in the chapel, those hands that conducted beautiful strokes, and i realise how much i owe her if i do get what i want for the next year. i took Ps for granted. i took D for granted. i assumed you would do everything and anything and i was mean at times.

so in short, this day reminded me to start appreciating what pple do for me.

meanwhile, i realise i am into the 1st week of july already. looking really forward to the 2nd week. GOD will see me through. and i am still praying for a miracle. for he spare not his own son for me, what else would he hold back from me, what blessings would he not shower me with? God, i thank you for everything, you know in me right now my deepest desires and god i pray you'll grant me the place, that when i get it, i will shout your praises and fall at your feet, look into your face and know that you are indeed a father who gives and loves. =) amen.

si tu crois-