the end, almost..

so, yesterday was the end.
almost the end actually..i can't wait for it to be over yet at the same time sad tt it is all too soon.
well, it ended of in a tremendous shock when the emcees went on to announce for the grand finale. simply not a climatic end of my performing days in stnicks, but rather a cliffhanger.

people who screamed their lungs out for an encore, thanks so much for your sheer boldness but i'm sorry to disappoint you all. but still really thank you for the flowers :)
-blankness-
anyway,my dearest choir, i am very proud of every single one of you pple and i love every single one of you. seriously, we don't need to sing that song to show how good we are. we are good. and we know it. but, this is not the cue for us to grow complacent alright? i know that you pple can do it without the sec4s on the 1st july. we are a triple GOLD choir. rmb that, rmb that we've got the potential to do so many great things yes? so i ask that you all forget about the embarrassment, humiliation or anything that happened. we acted very well on stage and pulled it off...it was difficult leading you all this year, a trying attempt, i must say. sometimes i feel like i'm saying the wrong things, doing the wrong things.. but i thk you pple inspire me. that's all i can say pretty much. so, mei nu men, please don't cry if you were sobbing your hearts out last night ohhhhhkay?

and to you, i know you wont be reading this, but i just want to say that we treasure you as much as we treasure her, ok maybe honestly, we don't, but it's only because we love her too much because of the many things she did for us, how long a way she came with us and how much closer she is to us. but we appreciate how you've been trying to open up, and guide us but we don't need you to follow her or be her substitute and neither are we treating you as her substitute. i feel that maybe i shld have kept you more informed about us but i really ask tt you'll forgive st nicks for not accepting you enough. i know that you feel as though you have to follow her and tt we want you to follow the way she does it and i know you are trying to do your best to follow, but i just want to say tt you need not have to. so yesterday, was seriously smthg tt made you upset but i ask tt you will forgive.

well, sch has been rather tiring lately. no idea why, perhaps haven't got into the momentum of waking at 5.45am each day. anyway, the same old classroom topics are sseriously outdated and we shldnt be talking abt it anymore but then again these are what you call sec 4 talk and it can't be replaced huh? perhaps it can be replace with...

1) i am definitely going to be accepted into this JC and i will be accepted because i believed tt i will receive in whatever i prayed for.... matt21:22, my favourite verse tt i recite almost every minute whenever i pause to daydream abt IT

2) if my GOD is for me, then who can be against me? so i shan't be afraid of IT

3) i am so anxious and everyday i stay by the phone and my handphone that when every msg or call that comes through might be from THEM.. but romans 8:32 reminds me of something

seriously, hopefully we can all be encouraged by something tt will assure us.
for me, it's the simple but yet powerful symbol- the cross.

last but not least, welcome back da jie :)

i envy you

Envy is when you feel like asking your head voice to shutup and stop bugging you abt some event that happened to someone else and wishing that you were in that person's place.

James 3:16 (New International Version)
16For where you have envy and selfish ambition, there you find disorder and every evil practice.

James 3:14 (New International Version)
14But if you harbor bitter envy and selfish ambition in your hearts, do not boast about it or deny the truth.

1 Peter 2
1Therefore, rid yourselves of all malice and all deceit, hypocrisy, envy, and slander of every kind.


i know it isn't right but i can't help it..
anyway, out of all sincerity and everything, congratualations NAT, you got what you wanted and i am happy for you. <3

been there, sung that

i love my choir.
94 pts, GOLD
94 pts, GOLD!
sn choir's got double GOLDS for both categories and we topped both the sacred and under 16 category!

i thk i loved everything abt czech.
the beautiful sceneries.
the choir practices at flora hotel level 10.
miss lim and how funny she was.
the competition.
the people.
the shopping.
the partying.
our lovely tourguides.

just everything.
my job is half done and i feel accomplished yet sad.
but still, i can't wait for all to be over.
=)

czech republic

ok, so i will be flying in about 25 hrs time to frankfurt first then, transit to czech republic.
i thk its going to be great fun after all it's the first time sn choir's travelling there for a choral competition.
shld be cool.
GAT AND AAT tmr. i don't know how i'm gonna do it but i want to believe that with GOD'S power, i can, ya, somehow i will.so if it's HIS will, i will get through.

so, GOD, i pray for journey mercies for the choir, anderson choir (who has already left for czech) and miss lim, that you'll ensure our safety upon reaching our destination. GOD, i also pray that you'll be with all of my friends, eugenia, nat.. and whoever else and me, when we sit for the GAT AND AAT tmr. GOD, i pray that if it's by your will, we'll do well tmr and will be accepted. i pray that you'll grant me strength for the long day ahead tmr. i pray that you'll help me to stay calm and not be nervous or anything during the test.

in jesus's name, i pray,
amen.

bye everyone see you on the 13th perhaps.