RANDOM TO THE MAX!

three papers done. one to go on monday. BIOBIOBIOBIOBIO!
hmm, so far my papers... hmm!
haha, oh well, i guess at this point, i think there's nth i can do alr but just to trust GOD. yup,HIS will be done.
HAHA!
as you can probably tell, i am super high now.. haha! must be the 3 hr paper that drove me mad. anyway, i'm feeling a little bored. so i decided to do some chain email thing. ahha, would have never expected me to do it.. of all people.. but i will just do it. since...i am resting and i got nth to do now =))
yay, the weekends are here!!
=)
KV550 in G minor has got to be the best thing ever!
ohmygosh! i just saw the weird timings of the post promo schedule.


1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
nope.

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
> >yesterday. when i was yawning.
> >
> > 3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
> >
> >yup, especially the one which i used for the econs paper
> >
> >
> > 4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
> >
> >chicken
> >
> > 5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
> > no! =)
> >
> >
> > 6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
> > yes of course!
>>
> > 7. DO YOU USE SARCASM ALOT?
> >
> > nope. hee.
> >
> > 8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS ?
> > yes!
> >
> >
> > 9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
> > yes! if... someone pays me? HAHA.
> >
> >
> > 10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?
> > HONEY STARS!
> >
> >
> >
> > 11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
> > no.. i'm lazy.
> >
> >
> >
> > 12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG?
> > no.. my brother would concur that.
> >
> >
> >
> > 13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
> > err.. the one with lime icing and cream on the inside! tropicana is it?
> >
> >
> >
> > 4. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT
> > PEOPLE?
> > eyes
> >
> >
> >
> > 15. RED OR PINK?
> > BOTH!
> >
> >
> > 16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
> > STRESS TOLERANCE
> >
> >
> > 17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
> > you all know who you are!!!!!
> >
> >
> > 18. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO SEND THIS BACK TO YOU?
> > skip
> >
> >
> >
> > 19. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING NOW?
> > black fbts! and no shoes!
> >
> >
> >
> > 20. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
> > egg mcmuffin for breakfast
> >
> > 21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
> >JASON MRAZ! "i'm yours" aww..
> >
> >
> > 22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU
> > multi coloured!
> >
> >
> >
> > 23. FAVORITE SMELLS?
> > vanilla candles!
> >
> >
> > 24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
> > my mum =)
> >
> >
> >
> > 25. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU?
> > no one sent me.. i koped! haha, ohohoh, my choir pple were sending this around. of course in that case! rioHC pwns!
> >
> >
> > 26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
> > basketball. the last time i did that was.... a long time ago at church.
> >
> > 27. HAIR COLOR?
> > brown,black with natural "highlights"
> >
> >
> > 28. EYE COLOR?
> > black. with a little brown as well.
> >
> >
> >
> > 29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
> > yes!
> >
> >
> > 30. FAVORITE FOOD ?
> > hmm, don't really like eating.. grapes counted?
> >
> >
> > 31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
> > HAPPY ENDINGS!
> >
> >
> > 32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
> >
> > POWER RANGERS ON VCD! ok.. wait.. power rangers is not a movie. err.. i don't know. lol
> >
> > 33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
> >
> > grey
> >
> >
> > 34. SUMMER OR WINTER?
> >
> > spring!
> >
> >
> > 35. HUGS OR KISSES?
> > both!
> >
> > 36. FAVORITE DESSERT?
> > tao hway!! nata de coco!!
> >
> >
> >
> > 37. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
> > -skip-
> >
> >
> >
> > 38. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
> > -skip-
> >
> >
> >
> > 39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING
> > none. the bible?
> >
> >
> > 40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
> >
> >no mouse pad =)) laptop!
> >
> > 41. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON T.V. LAST NIGHT?
> > didn't watch!
> >
> >
> > 42. FAVORITE SOUND?
> > music. just music.
> >
> >
> > 43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES ?
> > beatles!!
> >
> >
> > 44. WHAT IS THE FURTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?
> >
> > ROMA!
> >
> > 45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
> > no.. dont think so.. a jack of many.
> >
> >
> > 46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
> > SINGAPORE!
> >
> >
> > 47. WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK?
> >
> > skip.

so this is it..

and this is it
it's down to only one day.
one week and a few more days.
what will happen and what would it be?
whom shall i fear? or rather
what shall i fear?
the Lord and gracious father
goes before me..

and i just have to believe that everything is perfect
in His time and in His will.
come what may,
whatever it may be..
i just want to trust him.

p.s. all the best to everyone else having exams. take care!

:(

i just wrote a very angry entry. and yes, i deleted it.
:(
it's irritating to know that you are upset but you don't really want to be upset abt things because you know you shldn't be.
do i make sense?
then again, it's not wrong to feel upset cause we are created with emotions?
but it's just..i feel very stupid doing things or feeling things that is wrong and that i'm aware of it.

and this phrase just made me feel so upset. (for nth)
"Mistakes- it could be that the purpose of your life is only to serve as a warning to others"

like why am i even upset abt it in the first place when i have a truckload of rebuttals and counter arguments?

:( it's just not my day today. better stop before this ends up like the previous entry.

down to a single digit

many people think it's dumb to do countdowns to major events such as examinations for instance, but i think it's good because at least it gives you a sense of expectation or anticipation.

but then again, on the flip side, too much anticipation or expectation isn't that good either.

anyway, it's down to a single digit. yup, EIGHT's the magic number.

well, this week has been almost the same as every other week. things in school have probably come to a standstill or rather routine. and tutorials have been rather light in a sense because we're going through revision and not learning anything new.

but i do need to make more use of my breaks in between instead of hanging around, binching on food in the canteen or just watch people play cards. how lame is that.ya, i have been eating more in sch in between breaks..

but yes, i love to watch. watch people, observe things around.. think of random things..

but yes,i need to study or find some secluded place in sch to just mug instead of wasting time away. but i really really find that i can't study in sch for nuts. i think i need to sit in a empty white room to study. or maybe a vacuum space. then i wont have anything around to look at or be distracted by things around me.

econs tuition just now made my brain all gooey.
but yes, GOD has been good. and i am really glad to see him work in the lives of the people around. it's just amazing to share people's joy or know that they have been hungering more for HIS word. keeping them in prayer.
yes, GOD is good despite the fact that i will only be able to attend church from 8.30-9.30 for the next 2 weeks.. cant even go mum's church now since chem tuition can't be postponed or rescheduled. =( but in all things god works for the good of those who love him.

random: haha, on a more "bimbotic" note, i've got 6 different coloured hairbands now. how cool is that? 6 different colours to match what i wear in future. and the cooler fact is that my mum actually bought them because it was so cheap.. and.. apparently because she saw that i broke my previous orange one. HA. okay, yay! i've got 6 now..

i think recently, or maybe this week, i've been thinking a lot about the promises GOD gave, inheritance that he promised us in heaven. probably caused i've been reading ephesians this week.

eph 1:13-14
"13And you also were included in Christ when you heard the word of truth, the gospel of your salvation. Having believed, you were marked in him with a seal, the promised Holy Spirit,
14who is a deposit guaranteeing our inheritance until the redemption of those who are God's possession—to the praise of his glory."

and yes, i shared this before but i think it still hits me as a very breathtaking fact that i am marked. i always ponder and think to myself sometimes why would god love me? like us humans being so small like ants all scattered around on earth and GOD who is so big..and to think that i have a guarantee.. or an "insurance" of treasures in heaven so much better than silver and gold or anything on earth. and it just brings me back to god's love for man, for me..

and it was around midweek where i started thinking about the jars of clay passage in the bible.

2cor 4:16-18
"16Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. 17For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. 18So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal."

i think this verse comforted a lot. because i think every now and then i am very tempted to think of stupid things when i am very stressed or tired of doing things. but see, "though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we're being renewed day by day." praise god for that! and the best part comes where "our MOMENTARY troubles are achieving for us an ETERNAL glory that far OUTWEIGHS them all."

yes, it reminds me of a passage in zechariah.. i thk. of how we're always being tested and in the process we become refined..

oh well, i think i've been very encouraged. and yup, my encouragement to you is that you'll hunger for god's word too =) and i really agree that the bible comes alive when you really read into it. afterall, it's god- breathed, useful as a tool for admonishing and teaching.

this week

looking back at what i have done this week.. i thk i did a fair bit but still not enough. considering that i wake up at 8 daily and slp by 10 plus every night without fail.

but i do thank god for many things this week.
i thank god for parents who would love me enough to take leave and half day leaves to stay home and monitor me to study.
i thank god for a new inspiring math tutor whom i absolutely dare not defy or not do math tuition hmwk..
( i really really really dislike maths, because it's so draining to do the stacks of hmwk she gives me but yet i want to do it..not for anyone, but for myself. don't get me wrong though, i really like my new math tutor.. somehow she reminds me of ms chye, just not that eccentric, but she's nice. so i'm thankful.)
i thank god for the times where i could just worship with the piano or guitar in between during breaks.

at the same time, i've my fair share of stressed up periods this week. yes, i get so upset whenever my tutors cancel on me or reschedule.. then i have to adjust my schedule again. hmm, reminds me of how i shld nvr cancel on my tutors unnecessarily. and whenever i look at my schedule and timetable i feel as though i have so little time and still so much to study. and then i start getting stressed of not knowing if i can cover everything since i am slightly behind time already.

sch reopening on monday, and.. it's just going to get busier, with additional sch consultation periods as well as my own tuitions and not forgetting i still have to squeeze in time for my own revision. it's really only 15 more days.

yes, i am stressed. but i am okay. seems contradicting huh? but i thk you get what i mean. so don't have to worry. and yes, i'm ok because i know in the end things wld work out, and i have faith god will see me through. just have to try and eliminate that bit of stress.. haha. and yes, how? by letting god's peace consume me. peace that passes all understanding, that will guard my heart and my mind.. i want to feel that way.. reminds me of days where i sat by the ledge near my window and just daydream, look outside or even just sitting in esplanade library.. again, looking out of a window. haha.. i love looking out of windows and daydreaming. (hmm, probably a trait i picked up from my mother.)

other than that, i think god is amazing. i just finished colossians. and yes, it speaks abt how we are reconciled to god because of his finished work on the cross and the way we shld respond is to be set apart.

"so then just as you received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to live in Him, rooted and built up in Him, strengthened in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness."

ok, i got to go slp. going to miss my church people for tmr and the following sunday. yes because i have econs tuition every sunday morning, and, yes, attending my mum's church's afternoon services.
that reminds me, i have an econs essay test tmr.
market failure and market structures..

tsk.
and i desperately need to finish my integration hmwk by tmr.

tired

i feel so tired. sigh, it's funny how i thought to myself before that maybe.. just maybe.. i would love to study. like after exams there would absolutely be.. nothing to do. (NOT! haha.) but i feel so tired.. looking at my schedule, looking at the things i have not studied, thinking abt whether i can even remember those things that i have studied.

muscles all tensed up. yes, definitely stressed out.
trying to breathe.
dang. i am worrying.

yes, sigh..
my notes are screaming to be picked up.
so tired...
i feel so whiny. haha, and i really want to call someone and just go.. "hey, i am so tired..." and then fall asleep while saying tt. haha.

"hello!"
"hey, how are you?"
"i am so tired..............."
"haha, go sleep?"
"....."
"hello?"
"...."
"err... are you there?"
"..."
"hello?"

ahh.. imagine the reaction of the person on the other line. well, that just made me chuckle.
when things get so tiring, you just find some random things to think abt to keep yourself awake.

back to the books.