better day?

chineses oral tt day was just horrid. just proved myself tt i cant speak proper chinese. listening is also.. ahem.. not very easy either.

anyway, there is so much to blog abt la..so many thoughts crambling, whatever it means, in my head.. -head hurts-

but well. praise god i did well for my history exam! yay! now must make sure my social studies is gd too =)

yes,mep test today was ok la, well, its sad to have tests on 1st day of sch, just dampens your mood, cldnt slp properly the entire night, was thking abt it. and just worrying abt what happens in sch..

yes, sch's undergoing sturctural change, now we have 2 recesses. not a really gd idea though. and i end sch everyday at 2 or 2.15 now. sighs.. no more 1pm(s) on mondays and tuesdays.. sad! tts the time when i slack at library and blog :(
ya, basically, i rather not the change.

rushing syllabus for a math test on thurs :( yes, absolutley no time to study.

had mep till 6 plus today. tml have choir and rehearsals for jubilate. i hope we sing well, if not it means extra practice on wed! wed suppose to have learning lab but as usual i am not attending. cause i need the afternoon to study maths.. sighs.. learning lab is giving me a big headache. urgh! i jsut feel so guilty abt certain things. and it's just so bugging! and mrs carla ong is seriously the best teacher in the world! hate learning lab problem! yupps, but extra prac for choir is gd, since half the choir is still clapping wrongly for lacucaracha. :( upsetting.. why cant everyone rmb stuff :(

cheer up nat!
get well soon lix and mich!

pray tt tml will be a better day :)?

chinese oral in 2.5 hrs?

oral!
chinese oral of all things!
oh goodness.. thk i will fail it especially the discussion part.. oh gosh! man! we hardly had any practice at all! urgh! this is so frustrating, waiting for it to come by yet wishing i nvr had to take it.

man.

pray?

:)?

missing out?

well, i guess the holidays are ending soon.
it's been a total waste i guess.
i wasted my holidays, really.
maybe i did have a little rest.
maybe i did have more time to sleep.
maybe i did not have trouble sleeping, cause i did not have any troubles in my mind at all.
maybe i spent more time with my family and clique.

isnt these enough and ideal for me?
but still,

maybe i spent more time complaining abt homework and having to go back to sch for extra stuff.
maybe i spent more time whining abt everything else.
maybe i spent too much time thinking abt rubbish stuff.
maybe i spent too much time doing everything else but to play my piano.

well, i wasted too much time here and there.
and yes, i missed out doing so much during these holidays.
whether it be activities, camps or even catching up with studies or other pple..or even piano practising..
i have missed out, seriously a lot.

well, feeling so -bleah- now..
must trust tt GOD has other exciting stuff planned for me.

:) ?

in HIS time

Everything in its time
Written by Corrinne May Ying Foo & Carole Bayer Sager
Copyright 2001 Corrmay Gourmet Music (ASCAP) / All About Me Music adm. by Warner Tamerlane Publishing Corp. (BMI)

Sometimes I wonder what lies ahead
How long till my hunger is fed
They say it's hard to make it in this part of town
So many people on this merry-go-round

Some folks try astrology
Some turn to crystal balls
To find an answer,
To get through it all
I just fall on my knees and I try to pray
In the silence I can hear Him say

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time

I often feel like I'm two steps behind
Somebody must have moved that finish line
There are a thousand reasons
Why I should give up
But I'm stubborn in the things I believe

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign

'cause maybe there's another plan
One I still can't see
A little surprise, like your love in my life
Funny how time changes how we see

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time
Everything in its time

sorry NDC

ok, today went to dentist to remove my stitches. ya, guess what? dad was very angry, i was a little irritated too. we went there at 9.01am cause my appt was 9.30am.
so we waited until 9.30 am, no news of my turn to see Dr Wong. then 10am, dad went to check (bear in mind we waited since 9) then we were informed tt Dr Wong had some surgery to attned to. then we were like hello? why didnt you all say so? so we waited.. then they said they wld refer me to another doctor.then 10.30, by now, i was very restless and tired of waiting, dad was very frustrated also. so he went to check again, (we waited for 1 hr, not counting tt i came at 9, since appt was at 9.30) yupps, saw a lot of hassle going on, the admin staff all like panic a little.. then at 10.45am then they called me in.

so, Dr Wong apologised for her emergency operation and all.. ya, then she started removing the stitches, so there came to a pt where she asked the nurse to hold the mirror for her so she cld cut the thread off, then i stupidly lifted my hand up, like thought she ask me to hold. so dumb ya? HAHA. they were laughing at me la.anyway, we wrote in a feedback form, kind of complained tt they werent prompt in their service. so i waited for an hr just to remove my stitches which took 5 mins plus only.

but then after tt i realised it thought me patience and tt it wasnt really their fault cause she had an emergency operation.yea..sorry NDC.but i was nice k? i complimented the clinical staff, just quite upset with the admin staff only. =(

yupps, so, tts like the end of the operating thing.. come july its back to orthodontics stuff already =(

anyway, went to bay. had a lot of interesting stuff in mind. yea. went a little crazy esp during discussion, suddenl;y laughed to myself la. like crazy like tt. urgh! dumb.

cut my hair later. i look like a dumb person now. dumb.

proud

hey, i am seriously proud of myself cause i manage to stay away from a liquid diet! yupps, stop those nonsense porridge, tt day i ate mc wings and grew fat, and today i ate rice! oh, yesterday, cheryl cousin brought me and my brother to crystal jade for dinner! and afer tt we went to haagen dazs to eat ice cream! we ate this fondue thing, which is like some ice cream balls which you can dip in hot belgian choc.. its seriously heavenly and nice and its served with fruits and all..wld have enjoyed it better if not given for my condition, but its nonetheless beautiful..yay! i am going to eat carrot cake for breakfast tml! haha, but my face is still a little swollen, but more or less ok already..

just tt, i happen to laugh like mad everyday, whether its with my crazy friends or my hysterical giggling brother, i laugh and laugh until my face cum mouth area quite pain, and i am so scared the stitches will give way, ya, can feel some ulcers near the stitch areas..urgh! anyway, going to take stitches out this sat =) haha, i thk this is crazy, the NATIONAL DENTAL CENTER is seriously very very efficient, or i somehow thk they are very very caring or maybe i shld say a little naggy. yupps, see, the day of my op they called up to confirm or remind me that i have an op and whether i am going. and, they day after they called up to ask abt my condition and whether i was still bleeding and all.. and hello? today they SMSED me? lol? they smsed me! haha, they actually had a no. for smsing? yupps, to remind me abt my appt to remove stitches when they already wrote it in my card? haha, they probably thk i am some kid who loathes the dentist with every single fibre of my being. haha, find tt quote familiar? yupps, either tt or they thk i am very stress with sch still and i cant remember appts..haha, but well, at least they are nice enough to waste an sms on me.. aww.. but i like Dr Wong, as in, she's gentler then ALCY! YA LA, HE NOT ONLY SOUND GAY,BUT HE NEARLY YANKED MY JAW OUT WHEN DOING A SIMPLE MOULD OF MY TEETH! and he nags more and urgh!i dont like him, but haha, thk i am stuck with him for the rest of my braces life, and haha, i probably only get to see Dr Wong this sat and tts it! well tts the difference between a HE and a SHE. ya, haha, being sexist! haha!

ok, i am so mean.. sorry =(

ok, got to go eat dinner.. its rice!

proud of myself.

so i didnt turn vege but..

ok. the fact that i can still post an entry here, shows tt i didnt turn vege.

tell you, its an experience i wont forget k?

ok, so i got to the clinic at abt 10.30, and operation was at dont know what time.. just know tt i waited for a really long time.. so they made me wear tt ''shower cap'' thing over my head.. and i even had to wear shoe coverings k? yupps, and they dressed me in this dress thing that surgeons wear.. so, i looked like a professional doctor when i was finally ready for the operation. they made me sit at this waiting area and waited for my turn, gave me a magazine but hello? you thk i have the mood to read it? haha, as usual the wait was very long and i kept fidgeting, prayed and just waited.. my brother just described to me tt it was ''impending doom'' and started using those english phrases that he learnt for compo to describe my situation.quite irritating la..so i waited and waited.. then finally i got to operate.. so they tied this cloth covering my eyes saying that the light might be too bright for me, well, i thk it's more of like it will be such a scary sight tt covering your eyes wld be best..and gosh, they injected dont know how many injections into my gum..then they left me for awhile, after tt, when i really cldnt even feel that my mouth exist because of the numbness that the injectn caused, they started operating

the operation
ok, i cldnt really see or know what they were doing cause my entire mouth was numb, but ok, what i thk they did was first, they yanked my baby ''kay-nine'' tooth out. i used the word yank k? every time they had to pull out a tooth, a person had to hold my head still while the doctor pull my tooth out.ya, after tt, i thk they cut my gum but apparently i felt nothing.. and all i knew was after tt they drilled and drilled to break my permanent ''kaynine'' which was growing in my gum.. yupps, so all i heard was drilling.. and it really was irritating.. it was so loud that i cld have gone death, all i heard in my head was drilling.. then i heard cracks of my teeth, and somemore drilling.. then after tt,they had to stitch the wound out, felt a string tugging at my mouth then.. they yanked my pre molar out then tts the end of the operation..

post operation
ok, when i got up from the seat i felt a bit ''jiao2-ruan3''( jelly legs?) yea, then i waited somemore, for the nurse to explain how to take care of my wound and all..my mouth was still numb, and after a while, it bled alot..and hurt a lot after the numbeness went out.. ok, now all i eat is porridge and how do i eat it? i suck it from a straw k? how enjoyable it was? i had to suck hard la.. and it grew tiring after a while.. urgh..

now
it's still bleeding .. i slept and now its still bleeding! argh.. i suppose to go back in case of excessive bleeding but i dont know la, still bleeding. :l changing gauze now and then, sighs, it feels kind of sore and the left side of my face is a bit swollen..yea, i hope it stops bleeding soon..

ok, so thank GOD THAT I AM OK AND THERE WERE NO COMPLICATIONS IN THE operation and ya, thank the doctors, going back there to remove stitch nxt sat.

well, i just hope my mouth stops bleeding!

operation in 12 hrs

ok, i am having operation for my dental stuff in 12 hrs.. its like labelled minor operation with risks like mental parathesia and lingual parathesia? urgh.. this is so freaking irritating k? tsk.. ahh.. can picture myself busy testing myself some maths qns after the operation seeing whether i have gone vege? or maybe i will be looking through my phone list to see if i can rmb anyone? or maybe i wld practise talking or presenting my past speeches to see if i have any speech defects?(tts if i am able to talk)what nonsense? i bet you i cant slp properly tonight! urgh!

head voice: it's going to be alright, so many pple have undergone such operations and everything seems ok what? and ya,GOD will protect you, he will ensure safety and comfort.. so dont worry.. everything will be ok..

other head voice: ok, crap, tml is the big day.. what if i really turn vege? what if someone on the st says hi and i dont recognise tt person?

crap la, can picture my friend giving me a hug and can picture myself going like: huh? sorry but i really dont recognise you..(tts if i dont turn out to have speech defects..

urgh!i am so freaking scared!

so if you are reading this , pls do call me or sms me tml.. so tt i can receive and know tt its you, so i can sort of use it as a test to see if i suffer from mental parathesia? or call me, then i can practise talking to you if my mouth doesnt swell, and tt i will know i dont suffer frm lingual parathesia..

oh, i feel so blardy stupid, its just a MINOR operation! get a grip over yourself kid!

operation: 11am