it's a crazy day.

i am crazy today.
everyone is crazy.
sitting in the LIBRARY, hearing rachel and xinlin sing some backstreet boys song, they sound as if they are suaning the band.. damn funny..
and i just came up with a clique cheer for cclgmmhq.
and woohoo!

mr wong just said the mep: world music test was dismal.

sighs.

i pray you'll be well.

ok, spent my entire wkend studying for maths and mep. and it's seriously really stressful and irritating. but mep turned out to be quite ok i guess, or at least i am not going to fail it besides wong's world music paper. he didnt even set africa, which was sad.. cause we all studied like crazy since it's a recent chapter.

oh, weekend on saturday was rather emotional.. guess cause mum said something which made me felt like crying. ya, maybe cause i was just self centred or something. but she wasnt scolding me i just felt very unfair when she said some stuff.. ya, butin the end, she sorted it out with me and then i felt a bit remorseful. ya, actually mum is a ncie person. haha.she knew i was stress over this weekend and she asked me to pray for peace from god. ya, i feel quite upset and worried for her actually that recently she's been really worn out and sick, sighs. but she's a strong person, ya, still drills josh to study and all, while josh is being totally inconsiderate and still irritates her as usual. sighs, i love my mother. i hope she gets well soon though.

haha, yupps,so thats for an update.

and why do i want to go china to you guys who are really curious why wld i want to go to some ulu place like lianan, well, just want to go there, see how pple live, see how nice they are, ahha, experience life there, and ya, certainly to try lead them to god if thats possible. ha.

i pray you'll get well. i love mum.

thoughts.

ok, i cant go china trip, and that seriously is the verdict.
yea..and ha, my brother is like suaning me all the way that i cant go. dad thinks i will probably die in china and i wont survive for 1 day, let alone 12 days. mum thinks i will be so overwhelmed by the poverty there that i cant take it mentally.

why cant i go?
1) firstly, there is training for the mission trip. every sunday afternoon after church, but well, think i cant make it cause i have to use the time to study, practice piano, go for piano lessons.and well, i know the seriousness of it that going for the trip would mean a lot of commitment and zest and all the other stuff but i just cant. there's too much to do. there's too much to study for.

2) ha, like half the trip, mode of transport is on bicycle, and i am not very stable on one..cant even ride it properly for 200m let alone a few miles.i know there's a safety vehicle, but still..

3)well, i dont even knowif sch have whatever stuff during then...

4) am i even mentally prepared to go? well, my family was discussing abt it ovr dinner yesterday.. yea, willi be able to survive there..? or am i just going to go there and fall sick because of a different environment..

ya. quite upset ovr it, it's like so wasted.. i want to go..mum thinks its better if i go in jc or smthg.. thinks i am too young..

church camp.
not sure if i am going either.

wow, everything is like unsure..

well, i will just keep praying and see what happens.

sunday sch yesterday was quite cool.. had an interesting thought.. thx timo for giving such a good lesson.

timo: ''if you are ever feeling spiritually low, thank GOD for it, because the sign of you struggling to keep a close relationship with GOD shows that the holy spirit is working in you.''

yupps, experience low points of spiritual life before.. and i can say that those times are really difficult...but now i know what to do and even to be thankful for it..

yea..was listening to that droning wang jsut now,

mr wang jian: '' shi jie de dong xi shi hen mei de, zi shi wo men mei you yong yan jing qu kan''
(translation: everything in the world is beautiful, it's just that we dont open our eyes to look)

interesting thought.. maybe it teaches us to appreciate things around us and not to take things for granted...

yupps, it kind of remind me of one incident.. maybe it's a little out of point but it has some relation to opening our eyes..

ya, that time there was this virus that someone sent to bayouths email.. then i open it.. then timo sent some email later and said that it was a virus and sent some instructions on how to save the com..then i just kept it in the inbox but nvr really go read it.. a few weeks past with me complaining and whining on the virus in my com and i kind of forgotten abt the email that timo sent.. yea.. then when one day i finally realise that it's in my inbox i was quite shock.. ya, during then i was complaining to GOD abt it/.. not realising that he has already answered my prayers.. yea, that was a lesson learnt.

so, thats all for my thoughts..

a lesson learnt.

syf- we got gold.

sunset: best of the day
fanfare: not good
jap song: thk it was very nice, but perhaps it didnt leave a huge impression

ya,i was relieved that we got the gold that we all wanted. just a little disappointed after hearing more and more gold with honours choirs but think i am ok now..accepting it well..cause we all know we cld have got tt honours just that we didnt perform up to that on that day.. but yes, so what if we didnt get the honours? we all know that we are a gold with honours choir in our heart and yes, we will get there one day.. in 2007 perhaps.. and yups, happy for miss lim that nygh, fairfield got honours and anderson,anglican,tkgs,and us got gold. =)

and think i learnt a lot about being contented and thankful.

although we didnt get that gold with honours, think this syf, made cclgmmhq closer together and ya, it's just a very wonderful and good experience.

SYF-1 more day!

ok, syf is tomorrow for us.. yupps, and we are prepared to get a GOLD WITH HONOURS.

yea, miss lim didnt come today, was kind of disappointed but we can do it, we'll see her tml anyway.

and yes, today was our first attempt to prove to that critical person that we are paying attention to his lesson, not as if he realised that we did actually.

chem was so extremely boring today, all i did was to stare at THE purple shirt.. hahas.. thought it look a little ''retro-nun-ish'' but they all thought it looked clownish.

sitting at the library as usual.

free period again.

wont be sitting in lessons tomorrow.will be practising for syf from 9.45 onwards at chopin room.

poor nat.

LOVE YA NAT!
DONT WORRY, YOU WILL SURVIVE ALL THOSE HOURS OF CHEM AND WHATEVER BORING SUBJECTS THERE IS TOMORROW =) SMILE DEAR!

as for us, good luck to choir tomorrow.
cant wait to go for marche dinner after the results.
whether we cry or we smile, we shall celebrate!

''i am a GOLD girl in a GOLD world with honours''
-CHING 14

not good enough?

so, i am not good enough for you isnt it?
can you please stop demoralising us?
can you please stop condemning us?
can you please encourage us more?

ok, it's our fault if we dont listen to you. sorry.and we dont listen to you cause you always digress when you talk.. and we dont know when to listen and when not to. cause there are really many other better things to do instead of hearing you talk k?

and we are all humans. yes we are, we are not geniuses like you. please stop saying that our chinese is this and that. and all you do is say that everytime you mark an assignment. and all you keep saying is that our standard compared to alot of pple are very poor and the most we can get is a b3. and this paper is so easy that we shld get above 80 and if we dont our standard is not good enough but you dont even do anything. can you please at least support us and encourage us more? can you stop criticising us and give stupid excuses like we are prefects and monitors and therefore we have to get an L1R5 of like 7 or 8? and even 7 is not good enough for you..and yes, monitors and prefects are all humans.. we arent perfect. we cant help it if our chinese is like this and that.

so please for heavensake stop criticising us and be more encouraging. i doubt you will ever read this or even understand english, but i am giving you one week. i will pay attention and answer all your philosophical questions, by the end of the week if you still decide to criticise us... i am going to confront you.

so i am not good for you enough isnt it?