silly pple

yes, i just realise how silly the bunch of us who were at the library were. this afternoon was really retarded.
we just sat at the desks.. did a bit of work but later started emo-ing. and we started to emo only cause edison asked abt emo-ing again. and he was so persistent in finding out how emo-ing was like. and he tried to make himself emo. how funny right? in the end, everyone was so tired of explaining to him and end up admiring him for his tremendously heck care or positive attitude. heh, so i kind of went to choir with a heavy heart and after choir, i just felt rather upset. sigh. have never seen miss lim this way, not even in st nicks. i guess she treasures rioHC a lot. that's why it hurts so much.

=(

and janice, it's not true that my worries are affecting my voice. or is it?

IJ spirit's burning bright
fill our hearts with warmth and light
light that shines for all to see
love that sets our spirit free

hold on to our dreams,
oh please, don't stop believing
our hearts, and hands, ever seeking ever searching
....

the song goes smth like how we shld never lose hope in whatever we are believing in. well, HC choir, let's not lose hope. someone once said that the world may give up on us, but we shld never give up on ourselves.
found this statement very interesting.
" joy is the will which labours, which overcome obstacles, which knows triumph''

interesting question

edison asked me how come girls can go emotional abt everything and anything under the sun when they feel sian whereas guys just heck and go to sleep. hmm, interesting question huh? ya, and he was asking like what's there to emo about. and i was busy trying to come up with an explanation to put my point across as to how from one significant thing that affects you, you can link it to many random things that has happened and how this entire thing equates to emo-ing.
hmm, i use to tell ppl not to emo cause only elmos emo. but then again there is only one elmo who lives at sesame street. ohwell. ya, only elmos emo! so quit emo-ing!!!! ARGH! then again i wonder how long can i keep a positive attitude towards things that have been going arnd me. it's draining.
and it's tiring only cause i'm human. yes, human. not elmo.

but i know i can depend on god and his divine strength. knowing is one thing but truly believing in it is another.
sighs.
i thk the both of you are lucky to have each other to support each other. keep staying strong alright?

ok, i am talking to myself already. :(

before, during and after cny

chinese new year eve's eve (friday) was great. school celebrations were kind of quite hyped up as usual. enjoyed the faculty dance competition where i just smoked my way through by so called "moving in a general direction." hehe, it's really very fun and ARES WON THE FAC DANCE! yay! thk our spirit won us the prize. anyway, all the way choir! we can do it, our hc spirit/ choir spirit will get us there. don't lose confidence. we just have to give it our best shot every practice =))

anyway, went back to sn later. just to eat. SN CANTEEN FOOD ARE REALLY REALLY GD! i ate orange bowl and mushroom rice for lunch. can you believe it? two meals at one go! i just miss it so much. heard that sn had a full day tt day. hee, sec 4s still have extended lessons. don't worry sec 4s! persevere, the teachers are doing this for your own good and ya, it pays off at the end of the day! brings back memories of the time where we had extended lessons. tiring. i rmb i wld buy loads of food and smuggle it back to class to eat.

left after i gave oranges to miss tan. well, let's just say that i owe her quite a lot to where i am today and where i was in sn. thats's why must bless her by encouraging her? anyway, she almost told me smth but she said to reserve it later. hmm, sounds as though she's going to get married. hurr. maybe!

anyway, everytime i walk into sn. get this really nostalgic feeling. yea, enclosed in the four walls of the sch are many memories. ha. i miss everything, the people, the food, the teachers.. but babeh, please move on! had an emo talk with eliza and althea today at the canteen while waiting to speak to mr terng. basil was around too, just that he was emo-ing while listening to his music. looks like we agree with quite a lot of things. you girls don't stress ya? love!

my entire cny was filled up with mahjong! haha, well, i went for a latenight movie on monday. quite interesting show. ghost rider. Eva mendes is quite hot. ssss.. anyway, i kind of panicked on tuesday while rushing my econs article appraisal. shall never do things last min. yep, havent got down to counting my angbao money yet. yup. anyway, its almost the same every yr, maybe lesser this yr. but it's always my brother's angbao plus mine divide by two. hee. so both stand to gain. but my brother is really really rich. =(

so after cny, got back to sch today feeling quite tired and sleepy head. finished article at 1 plus last night. so.. ya. besides that, i thk cause after such a long yet short break, going back to sch feels sianing. but yea, some stuff which i can look forward to in sch. that includes choir, gp lessons, chatting with crazy friends..

choir didnt start off too well today but i found that it was quite fruitful towards the end. yep, jiayou everyone, we can do this. i realise that i am quite guilty of not focusing 120% also. kept yawning during combine before the lao niang came. when she came, everyone was just super awake after she scolded. hopefully we don't have to make her scold us all the time before we start getting down to business. realise that we are rather inconsistent also. was just talking to lishan and i was telling her that hc choir reminds me quite a lot of sn choir just that hc choir probably knows how to deal with miss lim's scoldings more positively. anyway, she said smth which struck me. didn't really know what she really meant when she said that she has high hopes on us until today. sighs. let's just do it, let's not disappoint ourselves and the people arnd us ya? anw jap game cld be quite enjoyable if we all focus and produce the right sound. i love jap game, but its a really tiring song. but we can do it. choir started angel mortal! well, let's just say i have a refine mortal. and the other is just simply sweet. everyone seems to know who my angel is. hmm. that might be a clue. anyway, looking forward to choir prac on saturday!

ok, thank you edison for doing my new layout! =)

POOR CHERIE

oh cherie this is my first time seeing ur blog... y so long nv post one? so empty sia... ok then since it is so sian i shall end it here. dun forget to credit me in ur blog!

GOD NEVER FAILS

ohmy.
i am really very blessed by god. it's truly by his grace that i managed to do well for my o levels. i totally didnt expect myself to improve so much from prelim results. so i am really glad, relieved?
god is really really really very good.
was really very nervous when i was opening the result slip. hands all trembling like seriously. then i was screaming like amd when i saw my L1R5. yep. more than just being happy, i thk once again god has delivered. he never fails.. like honestly.
=))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
and although my results aren't as gd as most of the pple in hc, still, i am very very contented and thankful.
congrats to everyone else for getting gd grades! just want to encourage the rest of you that results aren't a measure of self worth and you are still special in your own way regardless of how many points you got.

hey dear, i hope you are feeling better. take care ok?

=))))))) can't stop smiling at how much god has blessed me with.

all the way st nicks. good job everyone! and to the OTHER SCH who wanted to welcome us into band 2, i am so sorry to disappoint you that st nicks most probably will be in band 1 =) aww...

in a few hrs

ok, so it's a few hrs more to receiving the oh so anticipated o level results.
well, can't say i don't feel a single thing
i feel....

a little nervous for my results tmr
as though we are not receiving results tmr also

yea, kind of mixed up. felt a little on the verge of tearing when lynnette said smth abt the orientation photos being our source of reminder of how the choir enjoyed ourselves together. call me emo but yea, like i ahve always said and repeated many times, GP TUTORIALS AND CHOIR and maybe now, chem lecture and my class, my senior class are the only things tt make me smile..i love my seniors and choir seniors.. they are all really very nice pple. anw, whatever it is,god will deliver me.. and no matter what happens, i will praise him. easy to say but i thk it's going to be difficult to truly do tt esp. in difficult times.

dear lord, help me to be contented with what i achieved because it's given by you.
help me to have faith in you lord that i may believe that i have done well even if i have not seen the results.
allow me to know that you are in charge of my life and you have a great plan ahead of me, whatever that may be.
help me to praise you in all circumstances whether gd or bad.
i thank you for the few weeks where you enabled me to truly enjoy myself at school.
i thank you for the many wonderful, caring people, whom you have sent my way to make these few weeks in sch so enjoyable.
i thank you for helping me adapt to the sch's environment.
i pray that you'll continue to bless my friends and i, whrever we may be.
amen.

ultimate stupidity

guess what? i burnt my fingers when lighting a bunser burner. how silly?
that's cause the lousy low tech bio lab doesn't use fire starters to light bunsen burner. all use the old fashion method by matchsticks. so stupid me, damn kan chiong when i finally lighted the match, switched on the gas tap and i accidentally tried to light the bunsen burner by holding the matchstick over the top of the bunsen burner and not approach it from the sides. so when it lighted, my fingers were caught in the flame. (that was your cue to go.. 'ouch') ask me to show you how i did it if you didnt understand. quite difficult to explain. and, the bio lab didnt have any cream to aid burnts or anything. and my bio teacher probably thought being burnt by the bunsen flame is not a big deal and it is very common. hurr.. my brother insisted otherwise, that the lab probably dont have burnt cream cause no one wld be that silly to burnt their fingers. and now i am suffering from light-the-flame phobia. urgh.

anyway, i just hope i dont get blisters. worst part, my writing fingers are the ones tt are burnt. right index and right middle finger. zzz. comeon, someone challenge my stupidity. hee, not a gd thing though.

ooh, o level results are on friday. finally the day which everyone has been waiting for. hmm, feel a little nervous, but i am jsut going to trust him in this. with him, all things are possible and i know it full well.

had choir today, tried to sing. amazingly,throat felt better after practice. weird. quite fun la, today's practice was quite fruitful i suppose. yep, thk everyone has been piahing the wrong way. but we shall persevere, oh yes we will.

other than that, today was really mundane.=( hate mundane days. had only 2 hrs of bio lab and 1 hr of math lecture today. the rest of the time was stoning. tmr's worst. yucks. end at 5.30. zzz.

yea, got to drink more apple cider, honey.. all sorts of things to get my throat back in shape.

''throat infection,'' says the doc.

so i didnt go to sch today. woke up feeling as though my throat wasn't there.
c: so maybe you piahed the wrong way. maybe you were screaming too much.

went to see the doctor, got my mc and excuse from choir on sat. =( what a wrong time to fall sick.
c: so this is the result of being stubborn. how are you to last till the 8th of may?

whatever. i just want to get well soon, and get well now. so i can start trying to improve my voice again. to quote from mr quek, pray that you'll get well soon. yes. pray pray pray!!!!!

hmm, of course it's probably 4 more days to o levels releasal of results. probably. it's a strong rumour, but then again, no one will know when they decide to release it. hannah insisted tt it's going to be on a friday which makes it 8 more days. either way, it's still quite soon. i rather get it earlier. then i can stop thking abt it now and then esp. when i am on the bus and have nth much to do.

well, i promised to trust god in this. and yes, i will. manage to read smth interesting off huiying's blog which really encouraged me. '' in jesus christ, i will lead a 100% victorious life.'' and she shared abt how she told her friend tt although she didnt study for a test, she will definitely pass it. sounds incredible huh? yep, in christ, i wil emerge victorious in my o levels. and yes i will! wrote a song the other day to encourage myself.

Jesus, i know
that You are the Lord Almighty
Jesus, i know
that You are the king of kings
Lord, i trust in You
that You will deliver me
Lord, i believe in You
that You will bring me through the stormy seas..

chorus:
You are my God
and i will believe
that You can do all things
You are my God
and i will sing
praises to You,oh Jesus

Jesus You are
the Lord above all things, and all mankind
Jesus you are
the gracious loving father
Lord, oh mighty saviour
in You, i'll have no fear and no more worries
great is Your love,
in You, i'll have all faith and confidence..

chorus

bridge:
i'll have no fear X3
for You are God

chorus

i guess in a way, i wrote this to remind myself of who god is. how he is everything. how powerful he is. and because he is so powerful and loving and gracious, anything in him, through him is possible. that includes the difficulties that we face in our lives. god has a great plan for all of us. all we have to do is to just trust him in it.
amen? i hope this encourages anyone who feels upset or feel that their situation is hopeless.
i feel really weak now. mentally, emotionally, physically..
but guess what?
when i am weak, god is strong!